Controlled Chaos!!!

As many of you already know, I have recently gone back to “Corporate America” after being a stay at home mom and running my own child care business for the last 12 years. My girlfriend told me to allow for a month of “mass chaos” before things start to settle down. She just went through the same process about a year ago.

Well, this week was my one month anniversary. My 30 days of chaos have included the death of a grand parent, 2 hospital admittances for my mom, an illness that seems to have gotten ahold of Rich and won’t let go and my 23 year old neice and her 18 month old son being involved in a head on collision.

Not to mention the shift in car pool arrangements, my kids becoming latch key children and the guilt that I felt when I wasn’t there to spend time with them when they were home on spring break.

And then, of cours, there is housework that has gone undone, laundry that has piled up and meals that have not been getting cooked.

And finally, of course, my SL . . . or more specifically my not so SL . . . I feel like I moved away from home and only get to come back for short visits from time to time. . . sigh. I do miss everyone!

On the brighter side . . . I really enjoy my job so far, the company I work for is great (they really care about their employees) and it’s nice to be out among the adult population again (although … I am finding some are less adult than others, imagine that).

Hopefully my “initiation period” is over. Maybe things will start to fall into place now and the chaos will be more controlled. I know there was a time when I could juggle all of the work and home stuff without this constant feeling that I was spiraling out of control. Other moms do it .. .I’m just 12 years out of practice. Its gonna take some time to get comfortable with the new me.

I’m have to embrace the controlled chaos, hit it head on, tame the beast, slay the dragon, grab life with both hands, hit the ground running and not look back .. and I’m gonna do it. . . I am … I’m gonna do it right… uh … well… uh right … ummmm . .. right after I soak in a hot bubble bath, by candle light with a glass of wine. . . or 3.

(Sierra raises her glass of wine) Here is to the next 30 days of controlled chaos … and the many more days to come!!!